I've been waiting...

Well, today was my first day of Spring Semester.

First class was Psychology. It was alright, the teacher seemed nice, and the class was very interesting.

Second class was Western Civilization. Which seems pretty hard. We already have to read chapter one, and have a 5 minute oral report prepared to present to the class in two weeks. 

Third class was English. By that point, I was trying to soak everything in, and we were talking about prepositional phrases. I don't care how this dumb this sounds, I really don't know what they are. We were talking about a few different things at the time, and I just kind of got confused and drifted off. The teacher called upon me, and I said "I dont know the answer" and he said "Have you been paying attention at all?" and I replied "Not really, i'm sorry." and he said "Well, you should drop this class then. There is a waiting list of about seventeen people that would love to fill your seat." and that really discouraged me. I felt like shit for two hours afterwards.

Then I had lunch. Sat with the same people from last semester, and it was almost like we never left. Everything clicked. I started to kind of get that feeling where something wasn't it right or missing. Like that feeling where I don't belong. I tend to get that feeling a lot. I mean, i'm sure I was welcome and stuff, but it was just weird.

After that, I had Math. This is the first time I ever dosed off with my head in hand. If that makes sense... Like, my arm was holding my head up, and I kept drifting off. And then I finally got so sleepy that my head fell on the desk and knocked over my soda and everyone looked at me. I just picked it up and acted like nothing was wrong. It sucked. 

That's how my day went so far. I came home and my dad was yelling and bitching at me to do chores and take out the trash. I'm so tired. Tired mentally. Tired physically. And i'm also starting to get tired of this school routine... And it's just the first day. That's sad.