Future.

I thought 2009 was going to bring in a nice bright future.

It seems like the past grabbed my ankles and started dragging me back.

I really want to go back and change things.

I can't take this.

I don't want to be a lone at all. For the past five days I have been with friends. I feel impervious to the past haunting me when I am with my friends. My mind gets taken off of things, and I just have fun. Why can't i be like that all the time?

Gah, i dont even know why i update this thing.

nobody reads it,

and even if they do,

they dont say anything.

they can try to make me feel better.

but nothing is working.

i need someone to succeed. 

some rescue me?

god i sound so retarded.