SHE'S DRESSED TO KILLLLLLLLLLLLLLL

I DONT KNOW WHAT TO WEAR!!

SHE'S DRESSED TO KILLLLLLLLL!

SHE'S DRESSED TO KILL!

- Dressed For Friend Requests by Drop Dead, Gorgeous.

The reason why that is up there, is because they are playing in Vineland, NJ. I really hope that I can go... They are so amazing, and i've been wanting to see them live for so long. I am finally glad that they are coming here. I just really really really really really really really really really really hope that I can go. It would be amazing. Super amazing...

Anyways...

Sometimes, i think all i do is want want want want want want want.

What if I got what i wanted??

Would i be happy? 

Oh well, i'm going to go.

Bye :)

Thing I want to accomplish in 2009.

Get my ears pierced again.

Get my lip done.

Go to Wildwood at least 5 times.

Lose 20 lbs.

Get only A's and B's in College for my final grades.

Make a new good friend.

Go see a concert (At least one)

Go see a local show. (at least one)

Go to some other state besides New Jersey and Pennsylvania. 

Go to Ocean City at least 5 times.

Meet someone from a band in person.

Meet someone from stickam this year.

Learn to play a couple of songs on Guitar.

Write a song.

Play on Hard for Drums on Rockband2/Guitar Hero 4

Learn how to vocally scream.

Get to hangout with friends more.

I might update this later,

but this is it for now.

and i'll cross things off as i go along with them.

Tell me what you think about it :)

I hope someday this will be different. Not the happy things, they can stay. But it's best if the worst things went away.

The "privlages" i am given feel like something offered to a prisoner who has commited the most awful of crimes.

I wouldnt even be surprised if these chains stayed on me even after I am 18.

It always seems like something is holding me back to what i want...

Hold on a second...
What do i really want?

I wish i knew.

I hope things change.
I really hope they do.

Future.

I thought 2009 was going to bring in a nice bright future.

It seems like the past grabbed my ankles and started dragging me back.

I really want to go back and change things.

I can't take this.

I don't want to be a lone at all. For the past five days I have been with friends. I feel impervious to the past haunting me when I am with my friends. My mind gets taken off of things, and I just have fun. Why can't i be like that all the time?

Gah, i dont even know why i update this thing.

nobody reads it,

and even if they do,

they dont say anything.

they can try to make me feel better.

but nothing is working.

i need someone to succeed. 

some rescue me?

god i sound so retarded.