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I forgot to post in two days, and I'm really sorry!

Night before last, was pretty bad.

The day was good, but the night didnt go so well.

Yesterday went pretty good.

Nothing phenomenal, but it was good.

Today was good too.

Except, Math class wasnt too good.

I started to get anxiety.

She started to do geometry,

and I failed geometry twice in highschool, so i started to panic.

But as things progressed, they got better.

I just need to memorize my formulas and stuff.

Jumping to something worth venting about...

My mom made this HUGE big deal about me going to Scott's house afterschool. I go there all the time on Thursdays after class! Anyways when I got home after Scott's my dad said "You didnt ask me if i could go to scott's" and i'm like "uhhhhhhhhhh, i asked mom, and she didnt care" and he was like "well from now on, i dont want you going ANYWHERE monday through thursdays, maybe you can go places on friday, but otherwise no." FIRST, he tells me "No sleepovers saturday with friends, only thursdays and fridays" So, i was mad, but i accepted it. Then he says that??? I can't believe it. He has complete control over me. THEN, my sister is going on about how she wants to dye my hair all black. I said i'd think about it, but, I HATE having my hair look "normal" as they call it, I'M NOT FUCKING NORMAL. I will never be normal. And the more and more they controll me, the crazier I will be when I finally break my chains. Seven months till i'm 18... But even then, will I be free? I really hope so. I really wouldn't mind dying my hair black, and piercing my lip. That would be fun.

GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR. I hate not being able to express myself. It really sucks. I want to look what I want to look like, not what my parents want me to look like. 

I dont know what else to say I guess,

i'm so frustrated.

I hope this weekend turns out good.