Arms of Sorrow

"The demons of my own design 
This horror must not remain"

That song is playing now, and i guess it made me decide to put it in my blog. I am laying down on the floor right now, I am getting re-addicted to stickam. My ear infection is doing a lot better. Last night it was so horrible, i couldn't sleep at all. Right now it is very itchy, but i dont want to put a q-tip in it because it might hurt the healing process. 

Today I procrastinated an English essay. I chose it to write about "What I Learned From Dropping out of High School" because it had to be an essay like that. 

On another more random side i guess, I keep on telling myself "Everything happens for a reason." But I really wish I knew what my reason was. I feel like I am really missing out on my youth, or like things went backwards for me. I use to go out and be with friends so much, have so many pictures and videos.... But Now, i barely get any. My phone never rings. It goes off occasionally for some txt messages, and that is it. I feel slightly isolated, even though I am always out at college, or sometimes at other places.I want to hangout with friends. I am going to try to get down and mark people off of my list to hangout with. Like for instance, Christina and I always talk about hanging out, but never do. So what did I do?? We are probably going to the football game friday. I guess i'll find out more once it gets closer though. I need to think of more people who want to hangout though. 

Anyways, I guess that is it for now. I didnt get the picture thing going, but at least I got the whole lyric thing working again :D.

Goodnight whoever reads this,

and if anyone does.

Thank you so much for reading it <3333.

Ear infection =/

Another thing to delay my daily picture thing. 

I have a really bad ear infection in my right ear, and it's really affecting me. 

My ear hurts, the canal is throbbing, the side of my cheek hurts, and my jaw is so sore, I can barely open my mouth wide enough to get food in. 

I am also upset that i didnt get a flickr picture uploaded either.

Maybe if I feel better, tomorrow I will.

I have been doing alot of thinking today.

Not about anyone else,

but just me.

I think it's official that I am the only one that updates on this.

I guess this is it till tomorrow.

Saturday.

Well, after getting home from Scott's,

i pretty much just sat around at home, addicted to the internet.

I wish i could get off of it.

That's pretty much all i have to say,

i still need to start the picture thingy...

Mind in the gutter.

I guess i'll just start doing that whole one picture a day thing tomorrow.

Right now I am at Scott's house, and I have nothing to show.

We have watched Jackass, and Viva La Bam.

Some other stuff happened today,

but i dont want to talk about it.

I'm really really really confused.

I guess that's it till tomorrow