Future

I'm trying to build the future as I see it right now.

And it honestly doesn't seem too bad, the way I have things planned out.

I'm obviously not going to say my plans, that might ruin them.

Rain falls instead of snow

A darkness begins to grow

The cold rushes deep inside

I'm on this tour with no guide.

And as I sometimes seem so happy,

inside it's wet and crappy.

The inside has a light,

and you can see if it if it's at night

no one will ever understand me

not even you.

Twilight

Blah Blah Blah,

Twilight this Twilight that.

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IT WAS SUCH A GOOD MOVIE.

Wow.

I really did not expect it to be that good.

It actually made me think that there is hope in the world (my world at least) for love.

I really hate love. Well, i'm not even sure if I hate love, I just hate what it does to people. 

We forget everything for love. We do anything for love. We all desire love.

Why were we given these desires?

I realized tonight that I dont act like a normal boyfriend should. (what the hell is normal anyways?)

Maybe i'm a bad one.

Maybe i'm a good one.

Sometimes I pretend i'm some hero of some sort, or someone important who can't have love. 

As if i'm Spiderman or something. Or Edward Cullen.

OH GODD, I feel like i'm getting obsessed with Twilight. 

Gahhh, i dont want to give it away, but I feel like talking about it so much.

Anyways...

back on subject... kind of...

I dont go for things when it comes to relationships.

I usually let them come to me.

Gah, why am I even talking about relationships? It's making me sick thinking about it.

I guess if i could decide, I wish I were alone. 

I'd wish for everyone to love me,

but for me to just keep running.

Sometimes I feel like I run too much.

Wow, i'm so scatterbrained right now.

I'm going to stop writing.

Diamonds.

I keep on listening to Diamonds by Breathe Carolina.

It's AMAZING. Seriously.

The coolest thing in the world would be my brother and I going to a Breathe Carolina concert.

I think I should have some sort of format to these blogs.

This isn't even technically a "blog".

It's a "hi i'm 17 years old, in college, and have problems" kind of thing.

I took some nyquil a little bit ago and it's starting to kick in.

Being sick sucks.

I'm going to see Twilight with Nicole tomorrow.

I haven't seen Nicole in two weeks, i'm kind of nervous.

My brother and I are suppose to play Wii Sports tomorrow too.

I hope I stick too it, I wanted to play really badly tonight, but my sister and niece fell asleep in the living room.

I am glad that I actually stick up to date with this thing even though most of my friends quit writing in this.

Yay me :)

I miss Uber.

I didnt even care for uber when I had it, but now i am sad that it is gone.

I really really feel like doing video blogging. 

I got a program for my camera where I can upload my videos right off the DVD to vista.

It use to only work for XP, but Sony gave me a thing to use it for vista. 

I really really like it, and i miss uploading vids.

I am going to upload a lot more.

Well, at least I plan on it.

Video blogging seems so much better.

Anyways, I am tired.

I always think about the same things to blog about.

Wow, i am just typing whatever comes to my mind