So right now i'm pretty worried...

Even though they are midterm grades from almost half of the semester ago... The grades were horrible... I'm seriously scared for my grades. My dad is going to kill me. 

Grades fucking suck.

I'm serious. 

It's all people worry about,

and it's all that my dad fucking cares about.

If I have good grades, things will be alright.

But i'm not that smart,

and I don't push myself that hard enough.

Grades seriously mean EVERYTHING to EVERYONE...

and it's horrible...

I'm horrible.

...

Stuck in America.

Stuck in America by Sugarcult is the song I am currently listening to. 

Which is nothing relevant to what I am going to talk about ...i think.

So I had the talk again about me turning 18 with my dad. 

He confuses the HELL out of me!

One minute I get this idea that Summer is going to be super amazing,

and then the next minute, i feel like my personal hell is going to continue until I die.

This talk was one of the talks where it felt like hell was going to continue.

I'll just leave it at that I guess.

There is SO MUCH i could type right now about this summer,

but I don't want to offend people.

I really wish i could say it.

I don't even know what to do.

Yeah,

do you know what to do?

READING? Are YOU KIDDING ME?

Yes, that is what I have been doing. 

I have been reading.

Pretty amazing actually.

I finished Twilight last week, and i'm on the last chapter of New Moon (which i will probably finish within the hour). I recently have decided to start saving money again, since I am low on cash, and I have some events coming up. I have the New York trip which i CANNOT wait for! It's seriously going to be amazing. 26 more days till that! Or maybe even 25, I don't even know! I'll say twenty five for now. TWLOHA just released some new clothing to their line, and I really love that organization... I think once I get some money in my hands, i'll buy their new shirt, and even try to buy the book. It's $22 dollars though... A little much... But I bet it's pretty amazing.

I really have been wanting to make a video, but I haven't gotten the chance to, so I think i might do that soon. 

Gah, i'm just babbling.

I'll seriously try to update more.