The sick baby is getting better.

You won't understand what it means, but I do.

I'm not sure.

Sometimes it feels really sick again.

But sometimes i thought it was going to be better.

I just can't let it die i guess.

it's so cold in my house.

60ºF is very very cold.

I swear it's colder.

I am shivering and shaking.

Everything is cold.

My walls, my vents, my body, my desk, my chair.

Tomorrow I need to get up really early to go pick classes for Spring semester.

I am scared, I am going to be taking 15 credits instead of 12. I need 60 to transfer to Rowan. I hope tomorrow goes by really easy with no problems. After I sign up for my classes I really need to work on my Mass Media project. I have a 1000 word essay due wednesday afternoon, and a big product placement project. My girlfriend did put up some examples she found on google, but my computer closed out of it. Damnittttttt. Looks like i'm not going to be able to hangout with Scott tomorrow since I have so much work to do.

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One time, a person told me "You need to think what you say before you say it"

I am doing bad with that.

I have said some things I should think twice about saying.

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My fault.

I think I went from tapping the edges of the boxes and poking my fingers through the holes in the box, to back to hiding in the box.

You might not know what that means,

but it's a talk I had with someone earlier this week.

I need to do a mass media project,

but I haven't even started it.

I might even try to get some done tonight, i'm not sure.

I'll probably just procrastinate till Tuesday.

Ouchies, that reminds me,

I need to schedule an appointment with my advisor.

Ohh snaps, i'm talking to myself.

I'll blog again when i have something more interesting to talk about besides my life.

Alive.

So many emotions are running through me,

that my eyes are red, the hair on the back of my neck is standing,

and I feel so alive right now.

It's a mixed feeling.

It feels so good,

but at the same time, i want to go run as far as I can and not stop.

"Can we last through the winter?

The water's starting freeze..."

Those lyrics are racing through my head right now.

Too much to write just one thing in this blog.

It feels very boggled.

Sorry for that.

Whoever is reading.

Oh great.

Now the nostalgia is kicking in.

It has dawned me.

I am not a little kid that is inside of me.

I'm 17.

I'm in college.

This feeling is scary.

I miss you.

I miss you.

You are such a good friend.

Both of you are.

I dont think people understand how much they mean to me.

I wish we could go back to how we were.

I know we are friends,

but i miss you tons how you were.

BOTH OF YOU

You saved my life one night.

I wasnt going to kill myself.

But i was so upset, and you made it better.

I dont even freakin know you, but your act of kindness surprised and gave me faith in the world again.

I dont know who you are.

We only saw eachother once

but for some reason

you wont get out of my head

i dont know why.

The youngest memories of me is when i was little,

my dad took me to the store to get my cousin a birthday present.

I held his balloon, and walked down the isle holding my dad's hand.

The next one is my dad holding me and patting me on the back as I fell asleep.

I bet nobody knows that.

My life right now is replaying in my mind as i close my eyes.

My parents mean EVERYTHING to me.

Even if they are mean to me sometimes,

they dont mean to.

And i treat them like shit,

and sometimes (like now) it kills me.

I just try to help you alot,

but sometimes you smear it in my face

or try to act better.

Tell me i'm okay.

Hug me and say "JonJon, you are going to make it"

I wish all of you one day,

could give me a hug at once

If I could scream, i would sing like Bert from the Used.

I almost dont care anymore what you think anymore.

God saw what you said,

you'll be punished later.

I am going to take my mind off stuff and hangup posters or something.

WTFack.

This is so strange.

Today I watched Saw V.

It was a REALLY GOOD movie.

I dont know why people said it sucked.

Anyways...

It's so strange.

I was watching the movie,

thinking how EVERYONE I KNOW, is connected some how.

And we are all connected, even if we didnt know it.

I even went through my friend's pictures, and noticed people in there that i know now but did not know before! It's crazy!

I guess that it is.

We are all connected,

it's crazy,

BYE!