Well today in English, we were going through some essays, and one of them really popped out to me. 

All this time, i have been jealous of what other friendships people have, and how they are closer than some of the ones i have, i am missing what i have right now. Like, even though, i'm not as happy as I was last year, or in May... This is what I have right now, and i shouldn't keep on looking how it can be higher, but looking at how at least things arent terrible, how i'm alive, and all is well so far (knock on wood). 

Things have been good lately so far I guess.

I can't wait for this weekend.

I really hope things turn out the way i planned.

"I'm looking for a place

I'm searching for a face

Is anybody here I know?

'Cause nothing's going right

And everything’s a mess

And no one likes to be alone.

...

It's a damn cold night

Trying to figure out this life"

Something is wrong with me,

i can't stop listening to Avril Lavigne. 

I have math homework that i didn't do.

And i have a lot of plans, that hopefully wont fall through.

It'd really suck if they did.

I guess i dont have much to say.

Today I was really hyper, 

bought some masks,

and that's it.

So... yup

done.

So right nowww

I want to be with so many people right now,

but at the same time,

i want to be isolated from almost everyone.

it's so strange.

one thing is for sure,

I HATE BEING A SLAVE TO THIS COMPUTER

that is all i guess.

my ear infections still hurt really badly,

and i have class tomorrow.

i should go study for a test.

Sometimesss

Sometimes, I wish that for a day, I could just be soooo famous, on top of the world. I really want to know what it feels like.

Sometimes, i want to know what it'd be like if nobody knew me or really cared that much, and all I had was my family, and no drama.

I guess that's what I have to say for 3 days of not posting.

Both my ears are infected.

Swimmers Ear

and my canals are swollen.

My right ear is getting better,

my left ear is in so much pain.

I'm scared to take a shower.